Saturday, August 16, 2014

State of Depression

Vanillant is a blog of positivity and happiness... The author must be happy and promote happiness... but she can't follow the advice she gives. I have been depressed for the past few weeks because of personal problems and I admit, I felt like I wanted to die in order to escape all my problems. I know it's wrong, but I'm sick enough to think it's right. This is the reason why I have been gone for a lot of weeks. I try to be happy with the little things that make me happy but I can't be anymore. I want to smile like I used to before but nothing feels right anymore. I read a lot of articles but I can't seem to follow them anyway. I feel like I'm wasting all my time when I should be happy... but how can I be happy? In the past few days, I try to believe that the storm will pass and a rainbow will appear. I'm the only one who could mend myself now.

I'll start posting again when I'm okay.


  1. I've had a similar experience when I was feeling really low but at the same time giving positive advice to others that I don't follow myself. It all goes away with time. I really hope you feel better soon. :)

    1. I hope I do too. Thanks Daisy! I hope you have a great day today. :)

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  3. People love you so, so much; you just need to realize that you need to love yourself like you did before. When you love yourself, everything that you do seems like a learning experience, and I know it's harder said than done.